If it won't be everlasting ... IF ..

My friend asked me about one of my entries in this blog. 

"Nandaa, you said that you never posted your love story as clear as that entry, so .. how could you write about him? How if your love story gonna be ended like me ? feeling regret for writing about love story in private blog? "

For a while, I keep in silence. I try to think the purpose of her question.

how - if - me - and - him - can't - be - together - till - the - end ?????

How if in other days, he will meet another woman that better than me?

How if in other days, I will meet another man that better than him?

I never think about this before. But suddenly, I remember a quote from a blog that I visited before.

If he can't be the last, Lemme say that he is a gift given by God to me now.

I hate "IF". seriouly .. 

still.. I hope he gonna be my last.