Long time no share :)
I wanna tell you about My Caramel Machiato.
He is sweet . As sweet as the real caramel machiato.
Actually I hope he will read this post later .
I will start .
I will admit everything.
I adore him since 1st semester . He looked so damn sweet . But that's all . He was dating a student from different major .
He don't know me. But I know everythin' about him , at least, his love story .
The social networking is called by twitter . I join it since 2009 , and honestly I knew that he has followed me. But I pretended to don't know about him .
And then, 2011 ..
He ever said to me that it was in the middle of october. Yeah .. First time we are tweeting each other . I saw his tweets on my timeline. And that time , suddenly I realized something . Oh My Goodness !!! I ever mentioned about his initial name in my tweet , I tweeted "hmm .. How about YPP ? Does he has another girlfriend ??"
Oh MY !! Till now I hope he never realize about that . In fact he must read my tweet bcs he is following me.
Ok, back to the middle of october, I mentioned him and said sorry because I just followed him back at that time although he has followed me since 2009 (he said that it was 2009).
And then I started to remember that I should be carefull to tweet. And never tweet about his initial name.
I know he is really close w/ other girls . And he has a girlfriend at that time . I just .. Umm I say it doesn't a matter . I just adored him.
And then, I always mentioned him in my tweets and he too. Because of scholarship, I ask him to treat me chocolates. Cadburry . Because I love it much . Finally, it called a deal . I GOT THEM . Cadburry.
And it is continued by texting. We are texting each other . Maybe he thought that I do love him . Actually, I don't know. Either I love or like him . I don't understand .
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Finally, here we are . 21 PIM . Mission Impossible 4 : Ghost Protocol. Nothing special . Just as a friend . As usual. Flat . Yeah I admit it . We are just a friend although he ever texted me and said it was aproach phase. But I think it couldn't be .
We went home. I'm with my baby RIO (vario-_-) and he's with his own vehicle.
Its 11 PM. But he didn't text me anythin'. What's happening ? I don't know ? Maybe it will be finished just like this . Just as A FRIEND :) [actually I hope he texted me, though just a simple text " hai, already arrived home ?" But It wouldn't happen ]
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I stalked his twitter timeline. I didn't know what's happening with him. Maybe something wrong was happening. He didn't text me yet till this morning.
Maybe I got wrong impression. He don't have any feeling with me. I am just a friend for him. You know what? This is HURTING me. More hurting me than before, I prefer we still don't know each other than he know and realize me but I feel so broken like this.
This feeling was breaking into thousand pieces. I don't know how can this is happening to me . How can this feeling become bigger and bigger .
But I have another result. He NEVER has any feeling. That's all . How a fool ! -_-
I don't know. It seems hard for me. Its hard to start new relationship.
I just wanna MOVE ON. I can . I must .